And, the Meds Have Kicked In!

I will admit it, I can be a grumpy, moody person at times.  Or that's what my husband tells me.  I try to be friendly and delightful as much as a I.  During my last surrogacy experience I took the Estrace pills just like I am this time.  My emotions were out of control.  I could feel myself getting irritated or upset and I would just go with it.  This time is different.

Yesterday I knew the meds had started working.  I felt that wave of emotion come over me.  Situations would arise and I was easily angered.  I quickly learned that these little situations that shouldn't have bothered me were REALLY getting to me.  And no matter how much time was passing I couldn't get over it.

This morning I woke up still irritated by things from yesterday and I decided I wasn't going to allow this drug to control my emotions for the next few months.  I grabbed my girl Jersey and headed to the dog park with a friend.  It was good to get outside in the fresh (cold) air and forget everything else.  It worked.  I got back to my car feeling great and I had let go of what was bothering me.  That is my focus for the next 3-4 months while on the Estrogen meds.  Find a way to escape and reset things, even if for 5 minutes.

My plan may not always work.  I may get bitchy.  I may yell or shed some tears.  But on the bright side I won't be on these pills forever and the pleasant, friendly, delightful Lisa will be returning!  haha

In A Cycle

It's real now!

I've been on the Estrace for a week now.  So far I haven't bitten anyone's head off.  Actually I think I have been quite friendly lately.  You'll have to ask my husband for an exact answer though.  I'm currently on 2mgs a day so things could change when they have me on 6mgs per day.  That starts next week.

IM is also in a cycle too.  She has her own monitoring and appts over the next two weeks.  This is all to align our cycles for the transfer.

A year ago I received the call and was asked to be their surrogate.  I immediately said no.  I wasn't in that place anymore.  I'm so glad my husband told me to take the time and think about.  After changing my mind we have now been introduced to two very amazing people.  They are people we can spend time with and really enjoy their company.  No forced conversations or facades.  Just a relationship that continues to build as our journey continues. I'm thankful for that.