My Happy Ending

It was the end of January and we were just finishing up dinner.  The phone rang and on the other end was a lawyer from Toronto.  I knew who she was.  I was a surrogate for twins in 2012 and she was the lawyer who did the final paperwork.  Why was she calling me now?  She told me there was a couple looking for a proven surrogate.  They were looking for a surrogate in the same province they lived in and the list was short....I was pretty much the only one on it.  We chatted for a while and the hole time that little voice in my head kept saying, no...your answer is no....you are done with that chapter in your life, you lost all the baby weight....time to move on.  So I thanked her for her time but as we were parting she told me to give it a few days and mull it over.

As the next couple days went on I would mention the possibility of doing the surrogacy again to my husband and we would casually chat about it.  Finally he told me I needed to sit down and think about it seriously.  Write a pros and cons list and decide what was best for me.  One of the best things about my husband is that he supports me in anything I want to do.  Since he's such a wise man I listened to him and wrote out my list of reasons so do surrogacy again and reasons not to.  The pros out weighed the cons greatly but I still wasn't sure.  We sat our four children down and had a chat with them.  They too would be greatly affected by mom being pregnant again.  If they weren't interested, neither was I.  They asked lots of questions and we explained everything to them that they wanted to know.  My kids are awesome.  They see the surrogacy as helping someone else, not that it will affect them in a negative way.  

I had the support of my husband and my kids, now it was up to me to decide.  Here's my side note....although I was promised a relationship with the surro twins I had before it hasn't turned out that way.  So I had to ask myself the big question....if I said no to this new couple, and my relationship with the previous IP's stayed the same way would I look back on this moment now in 5, 10 even 15 years and regret my decision to say no?  The answer would be yes.  Yes I would regret not doing this again.  I deserve a happy ending.  I deserve to be with a great couple who appreciate the gift that I am able to give to them.  

This is now my chance at a happy ending.  The IP's A and J are great people.  They are closer to my age and we have so many things in common....right down to our favourite tv shows.  Best part about A and J....they live 20 minutes away.  IM A and I have gone to the movies together and we have double dated with our husbands a few times now.  The beginning of a really nice friendship is forming and I'm excited to be on this journey with them.

What are the plans for us?  Well, IM is going to the clinic here in town to start the process there.  Originally they were going to the same fertility clinic in TO that I had gone to previously but it makes more sense for us to be going to one in our own city.  I have some travelling coming up in the next few months but once that is done we are good to go.  We are hoping for a July transfer but as we learned previously....nothing moves at the speed of Lisa.

I'm blogging this journey to share our experience and to help others who may be going through fertility issues themselves.  If you're reading this and you have a comment or question please feel free to leave it.  I love responding to viewers questions.